Hello.

When I was younger, I was afraid of commitments. Been through a lot in my life and learnt that I can't trust anyone. Sometimes I would also wonder, what will marriage life be? Would I get bored or would that person of the opposite sex get bored of me? Will I run out of jokes to make, or worse if we run out of topics to converse. That's what would get me so afraid of commitments. 

Then I would look at old people living their marriage life. There are good ones, but also bad ones. I've seen through a lot. There are also those marriages goals like two old couple still holding hands or how an old uncle pushing his old wife on the wheel chair, leaning towards her from the side, despite difficulty - they both still able to laugh together. I've not seen a scene like this, rather similar. But I do hope that one day I would get to experience it with my husband. Maybe not wheel chair bound; but the both of us together still lovey dovey, making jokes & making all the people around us sick from our sweetness.

After my 2012 break up, I vowed to only be with someone if I'm sure of it. Late 2012 I met someone who was as broken as me. Someone who has trust issues. When we first met we didn't know how much we would mean to each other in the future. We shared our problems, seek advices and eventually got together. October 1, 2012 was our date. Throughout the four years we have been together, there were ups and downs definitely. The problems we faced together brought us closer as each day passes.

I still remember one car ride home during my secondary school year. It was afternoon, and my father had just picked me up from school. I still remember the traffic light was red as I thought "If I have commitment issues, won't I get bored with my future husband? If I can't last longer than 4 months with a boy, how can I last more than 4 years?" exactly were my thoughts. I was just like any other school girl dreaming of her Prince Charming, doodling it down on my notepad.

Nevertheless, there is the guy who solved my commitment issues. Who made me fall in love with his witty jokes, big smiles and small eyes. There is the guy who knows me inside and outside. Who regards my problems as his. He is the guy who's there for me no matter what happens. We argue, we fight but we'll definitely recover and each time he would be the one saying "It's always me having to say I'm sorry first" because he knows our fights won't resolve as my ego is bigger than his.

There is the guy who gives me advices without me asking because he knows. The guy who sense when I'm sad or angry. The guy who laughs at all my lame jokes of nothing. Who surprises me with just about anything & the one who drives me around to places I want to go. He, who tolerate my flaws. The one who makes lame jokes with me, and the one who entertain my abnormalities such as laughing my by myself or when I say funny things to people.

He is also the one who said I DO together with me during our marital ceremony.

We finally signed on the 1st of October, 2016; four years after we got together. Thus opening up a new chapter of both of our lives.